Dark Before The Heart

Tell me how to begin
Where do I start
Explain all this pain
Inside my fucked up heart

Well I told you me fears
Expressed all my pain
You got in to where it hurts
Can I really trust anyone again

Sent me a message
And I freaked out
Told you before
What was my doubt
Yet you still went
And left me without

Panicked all night
Dreams kept me up
You didn’t say a thing
After you went out with him

Hours they passed
I tore off my mask
Tears rand down my face
As I quietly retraced
Every word you had placed

Ran to you quickly
Out of haste
What could be done
But sit and wait

Hours they passed
Days turned cold
Then I forced you
Which would you hold

Loves embraced
All was forgiven
Then your words cut me down
Like a cold blade
Asked why did you wait
‘Till after our embrace

Rage filled my body
Hate hit my heart
I was startled at the start
Stunned you could betray

To you I opened up
More to you than any other
I let you in
So much farther than I should
With these feelings for you

You let me down
Broke my heart clean in two
When you told me what you did
Between you two

But I forgave
Forgave all the pain and suffering
That you put me through
And I stayed with you

Everyone screamed at me
What the fuck is wrong with you
You should run away
Don’t look back on those days
Let them fade away
Heal yourself

But I stayed
Standing by your side
Going against a rising tide
Learning who I really am

And at this point
This roads of crossing I stand on
Where do I go from here
You stole my heart from the start
And I do not want it back
So keep it safe from misuse

It still belongs to you…